this is so hard so bare with me

so this week has been pretty much hell.
first i had a tumor cut out of my thigh and it won't heal. the stitches keep breaking and it keeps bleeding. i have broncitus and have so for 2 months, so today i had to get xrays of my chest and started my fourth set of antibiotics. i hope to hear from the doc. later today.
then kelly went to work on wed. and 5 min, to end of day was brought aside and told that next wed will be his last day of work as they are having major layoffs, so all of itw is i guess. wow what a shocker. they will give him his last check on jan. 9th. so i am gratful for that because they said there was no need to come back in on wed, because he can't start projects that he won't be able to finish. so he is in the mode of finding another job. i have no worries that he won't do everything in his power to get another one. he is so wonderful about taking care of us. he loves to work and won't stop. so i have a great deal of respect and love for him.
my heart breaks everytime the kids mention that they would really like this or this for christmas. it's not that they are wanting tons of things it's just that we don't have anything for anything. they understand but to what extent i am not sure.
a friend that i thought was a friend we had to call the police on. here is that story. we lend them money all the time. we let them have food, and pretty much teresa has had a say in everything from the kids, to the way my house should be. not that i really wanted her to but i am scared when it comes to setting boundries with friends. her husband helped us with a disposal in the kitchen and we thought that it was friends helping friends because we help them all the time. well no it wasn't like that at all. she called us the day before thanksgiving and wanted 50 dollars for helping. i told her we didn't have it and that was the truth. well she started to go off. so i handed the phone to kelly. as soon as he said that since her water had been shut off due to not wanting to pay for it, she has done showers, and we came home from a party to find her doing about 10 loads without asking first. she started fling the f bomb everywhere and screaming at him. well they had our dvr and kelly wanted to go get it. when he knocked and the husband let him in, she threw it at him and hit him in the chest and when he went to pick it up she started hitting and slapping him. then she said that he wasn't going to leave. oh my gosh crazy hu? anyway he pushed his way out and when he got home called the cops so that if she came up with some crazy idea she could get kelly into trouble. he didn't want to press charges because he is such a good guy and they were shocked. anyway they had their daughter call and ask for 30 and when i said that i didn't have it she was in the background egging it on. so there goes that friendship and then she told my friend that i should grow up and come to her house to "talk" like i'm going to go there. right does she think i am stupid? anyway that is enough for right now. love you all and hope your holidays are happy.