pics of the house

so this is going to be a few pics. have to show off the house we are in that we love. love you all

life is great with a great family

i know that last time i wrote i was in a bit of a sad mood. well things are looking much better these days.
i have the most wonderful husband that is hard working, sweet, adorable, and kind hearted.
i have 3 amazing and wonderful kids. they are smart, independent and very caring.
i have been blessed with healthy children that are strong and smart.
we have a warm home, with heat, electricity, water, and warm clothes
we have the savior, and his teachings to help us through our lives
we have a great ward that supports up and helps those that are in need of help
even though we don't have any job offers yet, we are still together and help each other
when we get down all we have to do is open our eyes to others that don't have these things
i am grateful for my life.
hope that your holidays are warm and full of love and family. we love all of you and enjoy your blogs. love to you all.

this is so hard so bare with me

so this week has been pretty much hell.
first i had a tumor cut out of my thigh and it won't heal. the stitches keep breaking and it keeps bleeding. i have broncitus and have so for 2 months, so today i had to get xrays of my chest and started my fourth set of antibiotics. i hope to hear from the doc. later today.
then kelly went to work on wed. and 5 min, to end of day was brought aside and told that next wed will be his last day of work as they are having major layoffs, so all of itw is i guess. wow what a shocker. they will give him his last check on jan. 9th. so i am gratful for that because they said there was no need to come back in on wed, because he can't start projects that he won't be able to finish. so he is in the mode of finding another job. i have no worries that he won't do everything in his power to get another one. he is so wonderful about taking care of us. he loves to work and won't stop. so i have a great deal of respect and love for him.
my heart breaks everytime the kids mention that they would really like this or this for christmas. it's not that they are wanting tons of things it's just that we don't have anything for anything. they understand but to what extent i am not sure.
a friend that i thought was a friend we had to call the police on. here is that story. we lend them money all the time. we let them have food, and pretty much teresa has had a say in everything from the kids, to the way my house should be. not that i really wanted her to but i am scared when it comes to setting boundries with friends. her husband helped us with a disposal in the kitchen and we thought that it was friends helping friends because we help them all the time. well no it wasn't like that at all. she called us the day before thanksgiving and wanted 50 dollars for helping. i told her we didn't have it and that was the truth. well she started to go off. so i handed the phone to kelly. as soon as he said that since her water had been shut off due to not wanting to pay for it, she has done showers, and we came home from a party to find her doing about 10 loads without asking first. she started fling the f bomb everywhere and screaming at him. well they had our dvr and kelly wanted to go get it. when he knocked and the husband let him in, she threw it at him and hit him in the chest and when he went to pick it up she started hitting and slapping him. then she said that he wasn't going to leave. oh my gosh crazy hu? anyway he pushed his way out and when he got home called the cops so that if she came up with some crazy idea she could get kelly into trouble. he didn't want to press charges because he is such a good guy and they were shocked. anyway they had their daughter call and ask for 30 and when i said that i didn't have it she was in the background egging it on. so there goes that friendship and then she told my friend that i should grow up and come to her house to "talk" like i'm going to go there. right does she think i am stupid? anyway that is enough for right now. love you all and hope your holidays are happy.

thanksgiving

today was the most amazing day. we started out by cleaning out the boxes out of the front room. wow it looks really nice. then we started watching a movie with the kids. we went back over to the old house and got the rest of the frozen food out from the freezer. we started making dinner all together. that was fun and frustrating all at the same time. having kelly, me and three kids all trying to help. it was crazy. the turkey didn't have a timer and we had to throw away the old one as it was broken. so we just took a mental note as to how long it would take. we covered the turkey with oil and garlic. wow good.
we started watching more of the movie and then stopped it again so that we could make real mashed potatoes. we made strawberry cheesecake. watched more movie and then stopped it to eat. man the turkey was so done that it just fell off the bones. we all made a turkey thankful bag. we each wrote down 10 things we are thankful for and we are going to use it like a time capsule. every year we are going to write down 10 things we are thankful for and then read the old ones to see how the kids change in their thinking of things to be thankful for.
so after we prayed, we each read 2 things out of the bag. it was fun and the kids got all excited when someone would read there's. dinner was amazing. we had turkey, real mashed potatoes, salad, croissant rolls, stuffing and gravy. we had made a pumpkin pie also.
we finished the movie and then the kids were ready to go to bed. now kelly and i are watching one of our shows and then plan on going to bed a lot earlier than we usually do.
i feel bad that i haven't written for a little while and have no pics cause torey broke ours. we hope to get one for christmas then i can show you all just how cute our house is and how big the kids are getting.
we have been unpacking and making this our home and we all LOVE it. did i say that i LOVE it? i am so happy here. everything took so much in the bigger house and here everything is all close and i can clean in like an hour. where as the other house it would overwhelm me and then i wouldn't do it very often. i have kept up with dishes, laundry, and the bathroom. oh and the front room. i am just so happy here.
well that's enough for now. hope that you all had a WONDERFUL thanksgiving and that your holidays will be filled with love and happiness. love you all.

life is crazy.

so we are in the middle of moving. we found this house on wed. then we got the approval on tue. then we moved in fri. so lets just say it is insane. we didn't have any help except for the two most amazing men in the ward. they helped with the furniture. then it was up to kelly and i. we only have 7 boxes cause we can't find anymore anywhere. so we pack come unpack( and put it away right then, huge blessing) and then start it all over again.
we LOVE this little house. kaydin hasn't had an accedent since we moved ( he has had really bad issues with it) and torey hasn't wet her pullups either. so YEAH! even our dog loves it here. it has been a blessing and we have only been here 3 days.
love all of you for your loving us. we love all of you.

thanks. everyone for your prayers. it was me and my friend but my nerves were so shot that i couldn't deal so i went to sleep. i know crazy. with all other surgeries, i would pace and cry and pace and you know just go crazy. but this one was different. i think it was the lord blessing me through it. kelly is doing great. other than bruising he is wonderful. we are all doing good. the weather is crazy the last couple of weeks. it has been in the 80's. today though it is 50. HUGE difference. anyway i will post somemore at a later time. have to get the kids shoes found for school. even though i don't wear them :). you all know how that is right? love you all.

EVERYTHING IS GOING WELL

SO KELLY WENT IN FIRST THING ON FRI. MY FRIEND TERESA CAME WITH ME SO THAT I WOULDN'T BE ALONE DURING THE ORDEAL. KELLY WENT TO SURGERY AROUND 8. THE WAY THAT I USUALLY DEAL WITH STRESS IS TO SLEEP. SO GUESS WHAT? I FOUND A CONSULT ROOM WITH A RECLINER AND WENT TO SLEEP. IT WAS SO NICE TO JUST SLEEP THROUGH IT ALL. TERESA CAME AND MADE ME WAKE UP SO THAT I COULD EAT AND ABOUT 10 MIN LATER MY PAGER WENT OFF. KELLY DID GREAT. THEY FOUND THE EXTRA CIRCUT AND GOT IT TAKEN CARE OF. IT TOOK KELLY ABOUT 2 HOURS TO REALLY WAKE UP. HE WAS READY TO GO HOME BUT THEY MADE HIM LAY THERE TILL 4. WHEN WE GOT TO LEAVE, WE GOT 2 BLOCKS AWAY TO EAT AND KELL SAID THAT THERE WAS BLOOD RUNNING DOWN HIS LEG. NOT GOOD. SO WE WENT BACK AND THEY SAID THAT HE DID THE PERFECT THING BY PUTTING TONS OF PRESSURE ON IT. THEY MADE HIM LAY BACK DOWN AND BY 6 WE WERE READY TO COME HOME. HE TOOK IT REALLY EASY. THEN YESTERDAY HE INSISTED ON GOING WITH ME TO PICK UP THE KIDS. I HAD TO STOP AT A YARD SALE, REALLY I JUST HAD TO. I WAS GOING THROUGH MAJOR WITHDRAWL SYNDROME. :) ANYWAY DO YOU THINK KELL STAYED IN THE CAR LIKE I ADVISED HIM. NO. SO HE WALKED AROUND. BY THE TIME WE GOT HOME HE WAS HURTING SO BAD HE DIDN'T LEAVE THE COUCH THE REST OF THE EVENING. BUT TODAY HE IS FEELING MUCH BETTER. I WON'T LET HIM EVEN WALK AROUND THE HOUSE UNLESS HE HAS A REAL REASON. :) I AM NAZI NURSE TO HIM. HE NEEDS TO RECOVER SO THAT HE CAN GO BACK TO WORK. I WOULD LIKE HIM TO STAY HOME ON MON. BUT HE THINKS HE CAN DO IT. WE'LL JUST HAVE TO WAIT AND SEE. ANYWAY THANKS SO MUCH FOR YOUR PRAYERS AND THOUGHTS AND CALLS. WE LOVE YOU ALL VERY MUCH. THANKS AGAIN.

pics of our family

our friend had her brother here and he is a professional photo man. he took great pics of our family. here are some pics. oh and please pray for our family. kelly goes into surgery friday. love you all.

first day of school. i know it's kinda late but hey!

i forgot to put pics of the kids first day of school on here and so here they are. hope you enjoy.

new week.

this week has been pretty busy. we have been taking kaydin EVERYWHERE around here to sell popcorn for his scout troop. he is having a blast. last year the boys didn't sell hardly anything because we had a predetor that was in the neighborhood and had already almost got 4 kids. scary so none of the parents would go out. the popcorn sales is what pays for camp, badges, activities so that the kids don't have to pay each week. so we have been working really hard. if anyone is interested in buying some from him they have a website that you can goto and buy it there and it goes to him and they deliver it to your door so that we don't have to ship it. how cool is that. just let me know. i just don't want you to think that we expect you to do it cause we are family. he is doing really well. he is trying to get $2400 in sales so that he can earn a nintedo ds but he will live if he doesn't get that. amazing enough he is at $1200. crazy. last year is was $150 and the year before was $400. this year we are really trying to help the group.

kelly has WOLF PARKINSON WHITE SYNDROME. it is an extra electrical circuit in his heart that mimics a heart attack. scary. there is no way to know if it is real or just the extra circuit causeing problems. he has been taken by ambulance 3 times and now i REALLY talked to the doctor and the heart doctor and told them that i am terrified that we won't know and he will regain his barings and then die. so the first of next month he is going in for a Catheter Ablation. please pray for him that everything will go good and that he will come out of it better than he goes in. we are both scared. at least we know what he has and know that there is a solution to help him. it's just really scary.

ayla is doing great. the blessing and prayers healed her completly!!!!!!!!!! i know the lord and passed family was there and pulled her through.

torey is just cute and wonderful. i love that she loves to play by herself and loves it. she would rather play by herself than have me or anyone else there. she is really easy.

i'm doing great. love you all and hope that you are all wonderful and healthy.

the last week

i am going to try to write every week so that it's like my journal.
last sat. we took the kids to the park and let them play, we walked and so we did not have the car. ayla was swinging and when she was 15 feet in the air slipped off and landed on her face. thank goodness that she did not have her glasses as they would have broke in her eyes. she blacked out. when she came to she just layed there screaming. kelly went to go get the car and take hope home. it seemed like hours which it was only like 15 min. in that time she blacked out a dozen times, did not know where she was, who i was, where her friends from years ago where, why was she at the park, what was she doing. things like that over and over and over. i knew something was seriously wrong. when kelly got back i called the ambulance. she had split her lip half way and was bleeding. the ride was terrifing. when we got to the hospital, she was very out of control. it took 5 of us to hold her down. she was screaming and would bite, kick, pinch, hit, headbutt any one that was near her. she pulled out her iv 3 times. the things she would say just cut me to the bone. the doctor said that she didn't know what she was saying as where she hit the ground was where her emotions are. to get the ct scan they had 4 of us holding her down and they had to sedate her. it did an ok job but she would drift in and out and when she was in she would scream and thrash around. it was VERY difficult to get any of the tests done because they had to keep moving her which would bring her to. the bishop and another man from church came and gave her a blessing. i know without a shadow of doubt that the lord was watching over her as well as grandpa garr. an hour after every visible evidence of her fall was gone. her lip sealed up. she got her full memory back within 3 hours. we had 6 surgions come and look at her over and over because they were shocked that she had not broken anything, and didn't even look like anything had ever happened. she was kept over night and released. she is doing amazing. she still has a headache every once in a while, but other than that she is perfect. i love the lord and knows that he takes care of his children.

kelly also found out that he is eligable for this proceedure to fry out his extra cercut in his heart. he has wolf parkinson white syndrom and it mimmics a heart attack. we never know if it was that or a real heart attack and was really scary. so they are going to go in and do it the first of next month. please pray that it will all work out and he won't have any of the scary side affects. thanks for all your love and prayers. love you all.

OH MY GOSH I HAVE A 10 YEAR OLD!

so this summer kaydin turned 10. i can't believe it. it seems like yesterday when he was just born. i know that every parent says that, but it's TRUE! kaydin will be going into the 4th grade and that is SCARY and ayla is doing 1st again. torey should be starting preschool, but i haven't found one that i like so she might not be going. summer is almost over and i wonder where the time has been flying to. kelly and i took some friends to King's Island for kelly's work party and that was a blast. i will show some pics. love you all.

Kelly has a blog too and it is AWESOME!

for you who know and love kelly, he has created a blog about his passion for welding. if you could go to it and see it i would love it. it is k-dino.blogspot.com thanks

family pics after church.

oh man i have a beautiful family. i love my kids so much. they are such great kids. love you all

some pics of life here

hanging out with uncle jake
torey fell fast asleep while rubbing kelly's arm. oh how sweet.

kelly with the girls
uncle jake came to visit on his way to iowa
kelly and his little brother jake
boys will be boys

memory game

I've seen this on a lot of people's blogs, and it looks really fun. I look forward to seeing what memories there are out there! Here are the instructions...
1. As a comment on my blog, leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, or if you just met me, anything you remember!
2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty funny to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you.

AMERICAN IDLE

SO MONDAY WAS REALLY FUN. MY FRIEND GRETCHEN TRIED OUT FOR AMERICAN IDLE IN KENTUCKY. WE HAD TO LEAVE AT 2 AM AND WE WERE SOOOOOO TIRED BUT IT WAS WORTH IT. OH MY GOSH THERE WERE SOOOO MANY PEOPLE THERE TO AUDITION. SHE DIDN'T MAKE IT THROUGH, BUT SHE IS AMAZING. SHE IS GLAD JUST TO HAVE TRIED OUT. SHE WOULD HAVE BEEN SAD IF SHE DIDN'T TRY. THE REALITY OF TV IS CRAZY. YOU THINK YOU ARE SEEING SOMETHING, BUT THE TAKES ARE NUMEROUS AND IT REALLY ISN'T REAL WHAT YOU SEE ON TV. BUT ANYWAY WE HAD A BLAST. I WAS HAPPY THAT SHE ASKED ME TO GO WITH HER. ANYWAY LOVE YOU ALL.

The Joys of Camping!

We had a really fun and exciting time camping. Yes there were a ton of things that went wrong, but over all we had a great time. We left after Kelly got off work, which we probably should have waited until morning, but we didn't. We got almost there about 40 min away and off the freeway thank goodness. We got a flat on the trailor, so we changed it and about 2 min. later that one blew too. So after much struggling, we got our tent up and got into sleep around 1:30 and had to leave the trailor. The next two days TONS of rain. flooding everywhere. oh well. the next three days really hot with a high humidity. but it was really nice to be together as a family and there was LOTS of fishing done. i think we caught (well the kids only) around 35 fish. we kept 7 and the kids enjoyed eating them. kaydin found a frog and played with it for 2 days until we were afraid that he was going to kill it. we love camping and the joys that come with it. we are really blessed to live in such a beautiful world with beauty all around. the flowers were wonderful and the girls had a blast picking them and making arangements with them. anyway here are some pics. hope you all enjoyed your 4th of july weekend. OH and KAYDIN TURNED 10! can you believe that? i am not old enough to have a 10 year old. ahhhhhhhh. he had fun. love you all.