this is so hard so bare with me

so this week has been pretty much hell.
first i had a tumor cut out of my thigh and it won't heal. the stitches keep breaking and it keeps bleeding. i have broncitus and have so for 2 months, so today i had to get xrays of my chest and started my fourth set of antibiotics. i hope to hear from the doc. later today.
then kelly went to work on wed. and 5 min, to end of day was brought aside and told that next wed will be his last day of work as they are having major layoffs, so all of itw is i guess. wow what a shocker. they will give him his last check on jan. 9th. so i am gratful for that because they said there was no need to come back in on wed, because he can't start projects that he won't be able to finish. so he is in the mode of finding another job. i have no worries that he won't do everything in his power to get another one. he is so wonderful about taking care of us. he loves to work and won't stop. so i have a great deal of respect and love for him.
my heart breaks everytime the kids mention that they would really like this or this for christmas. it's not that they are wanting tons of things it's just that we don't have anything for anything. they understand but to what extent i am not sure.
a friend that i thought was a friend we had to call the police on. here is that story. we lend them money all the time. we let them have food, and pretty much teresa has had a say in everything from the kids, to the way my house should be. not that i really wanted her to but i am scared when it comes to setting boundries with friends. her husband helped us with a disposal in the kitchen and we thought that it was friends helping friends because we help them all the time. well no it wasn't like that at all. she called us the day before thanksgiving and wanted 50 dollars for helping. i told her we didn't have it and that was the truth. well she started to go off. so i handed the phone to kelly. as soon as he said that since her water had been shut off due to not wanting to pay for it, she has done showers, and we came home from a party to find her doing about 10 loads without asking first. she started fling the f bomb everywhere and screaming at him. well they had our dvr and kelly wanted to go get it. when he knocked and the husband let him in, she threw it at him and hit him in the chest and when he went to pick it up she started hitting and slapping him. then she said that he wasn't going to leave. oh my gosh crazy hu? anyway he pushed his way out and when he got home called the cops so that if she came up with some crazy idea she could get kelly into trouble. he didn't want to press charges because he is such a good guy and they were shocked. anyway they had their daughter call and ask for 30 and when i said that i didn't have it she was in the background egging it on. so there goes that friendship and then she told my friend that i should grow up and come to her house to "talk" like i'm going to go there. right does she think i am stupid? anyway that is enough for right now. love you all and hope your holidays are happy.

thanksgiving

today was the most amazing day. we started out by cleaning out the boxes out of the front room. wow it looks really nice. then we started watching a movie with the kids. we went back over to the old house and got the rest of the frozen food out from the freezer. we started making dinner all together. that was fun and frustrating all at the same time. having kelly, me and three kids all trying to help. it was crazy. the turkey didn't have a timer and we had to throw away the old one as it was broken. so we just took a mental note as to how long it would take. we covered the turkey with oil and garlic. wow good.
we started watching more of the movie and then stopped it again so that we could make real mashed potatoes. we made strawberry cheesecake. watched more movie and then stopped it to eat. man the turkey was so done that it just fell off the bones. we all made a turkey thankful bag. we each wrote down 10 things we are thankful for and we are going to use it like a time capsule. every year we are going to write down 10 things we are thankful for and then read the old ones to see how the kids change in their thinking of things to be thankful for.
so after we prayed, we each read 2 things out of the bag. it was fun and the kids got all excited when someone would read there's. dinner was amazing. we had turkey, real mashed potatoes, salad, croissant rolls, stuffing and gravy. we had made a pumpkin pie also.
we finished the movie and then the kids were ready to go to bed. now kelly and i are watching one of our shows and then plan on going to bed a lot earlier than we usually do.
i feel bad that i haven't written for a little while and have no pics cause torey broke ours. we hope to get one for christmas then i can show you all just how cute our house is and how big the kids are getting.
we have been unpacking and making this our home and we all LOVE it. did i say that i LOVE it? i am so happy here. everything took so much in the bigger house and here everything is all close and i can clean in like an hour. where as the other house it would overwhelm me and then i wouldn't do it very often. i have kept up with dishes, laundry, and the bathroom. oh and the front room. i am just so happy here.
well that's enough for now. hope that you all had a WONDERFUL thanksgiving and that your holidays will be filled with love and happiness. love you all.

life is crazy.

so we are in the middle of moving. we found this house on wed. then we got the approval on tue. then we moved in fri. so lets just say it is insane. we didn't have any help except for the two most amazing men in the ward. they helped with the furniture. then it was up to kelly and i. we only have 7 boxes cause we can't find anymore anywhere. so we pack come unpack( and put it away right then, huge blessing) and then start it all over again.
we LOVE this little house. kaydin hasn't had an accedent since we moved ( he has had really bad issues with it) and torey hasn't wet her pullups either. so YEAH! even our dog loves it here. it has been a blessing and we have only been here 3 days.
love all of you for your loving us. we love all of you.

thanks. everyone for your prayers. it was me and my friend but my nerves were so shot that i couldn't deal so i went to sleep. i know crazy. with all other surgeries, i would pace and cry and pace and you know just go crazy. but this one was different. i think it was the lord blessing me through it. kelly is doing great. other than bruising he is wonderful. we are all doing good. the weather is crazy the last couple of weeks. it has been in the 80's. today though it is 50. HUGE difference. anyway i will post somemore at a later time. have to get the kids shoes found for school. even though i don't wear them :). you all know how that is right? love you all.

EVERYTHING IS GOING WELL

SO KELLY WENT IN FIRST THING ON FRI. MY FRIEND TERESA CAME WITH ME SO THAT I WOULDN'T BE ALONE DURING THE ORDEAL. KELLY WENT TO SURGERY AROUND 8. THE WAY THAT I USUALLY DEAL WITH STRESS IS TO SLEEP. SO GUESS WHAT? I FOUND A CONSULT ROOM WITH A RECLINER AND WENT TO SLEEP. IT WAS SO NICE TO JUST SLEEP THROUGH IT ALL. TERESA CAME AND MADE ME WAKE UP SO THAT I COULD EAT AND ABOUT 10 MIN LATER MY PAGER WENT OFF. KELLY DID GREAT. THEY FOUND THE EXTRA CIRCUT AND GOT IT TAKEN CARE OF. IT TOOK KELLY ABOUT 2 HOURS TO REALLY WAKE UP. HE WAS READY TO GO HOME BUT THEY MADE HIM LAY THERE TILL 4. WHEN WE GOT TO LEAVE, WE GOT 2 BLOCKS AWAY TO EAT AND KELL SAID THAT THERE WAS BLOOD RUNNING DOWN HIS LEG. NOT GOOD. SO WE WENT BACK AND THEY SAID THAT HE DID THE PERFECT THING BY PUTTING TONS OF PRESSURE ON IT. THEY MADE HIM LAY BACK DOWN AND BY 6 WE WERE READY TO COME HOME. HE TOOK IT REALLY EASY. THEN YESTERDAY HE INSISTED ON GOING WITH ME TO PICK UP THE KIDS. I HAD TO STOP AT A YARD SALE, REALLY I JUST HAD TO. I WAS GOING THROUGH MAJOR WITHDRAWL SYNDROME. :) ANYWAY DO YOU THINK KELL STAYED IN THE CAR LIKE I ADVISED HIM. NO. SO HE WALKED AROUND. BY THE TIME WE GOT HOME HE WAS HURTING SO BAD HE DIDN'T LEAVE THE COUCH THE REST OF THE EVENING. BUT TODAY HE IS FEELING MUCH BETTER. I WON'T LET HIM EVEN WALK AROUND THE HOUSE UNLESS HE HAS A REAL REASON. :) I AM NAZI NURSE TO HIM. HE NEEDS TO RECOVER SO THAT HE CAN GO BACK TO WORK. I WOULD LIKE HIM TO STAY HOME ON MON. BUT HE THINKS HE CAN DO IT. WE'LL JUST HAVE TO WAIT AND SEE. ANYWAY THANKS SO MUCH FOR YOUR PRAYERS AND THOUGHTS AND CALLS. WE LOVE YOU ALL VERY MUCH. THANKS AGAIN.

pics of our family

our friend had her brother here and he is a professional photo man. he took great pics of our family. here are some pics. oh and please pray for our family. kelly goes into surgery friday. love you all.

first day of school. i know it's kinda late but hey!

i forgot to put pics of the kids first day of school on here and so here they are. hope you enjoy.